-thinkin of u all dae. all nite. i miz u-

rediculous.

2006-09-17T00:33:00.000-07:00

Math used to be my strongest subject, but i don't know what's gotten into me now. i can't even recalled simple formulas, imaging all the trigo' formulas that i have to stuff into my head by next week. Promos, i really dont like it (well, who likes?) anyway, i got stressed =X after doing the past year math paper, so i'm here...

it's been ages since i read his blog. i really like his way of writing. the style and everything, it's just flawless. i came across his blog just few mins ago, and i think he's got a new girl. funny, my heart seems to flick a little. he's quite good looking, but that's not the point i guess. To him, prettyness doesn't mean a thing, when it comes to one true relationship. A girl, who may not know many things- dolling herself/getting into a good course get good grades, but just someone who is willing to love him whole-heartedly-his dream girl?
Maybe it doesn't matter to me anymore, after all, there was so many occasions that he's been into my life, but i've just let him go, more then once, perhaps. Maybe, i'm attracted to just his sophisticated thinking, the way he tries to appear care-free and everything, but who knows the deep thoughts that's hidden beneath his mind...
It's a pity, we never had the chance to get together, me not being the key to unlock his heart, i wish him well, and happy always.

i'm happily attached now-
for all it matters..
because at another point of my life,
i met my lover..
and i'm glad that i did.

anyone understand what i'm talking about?
Lols..

toliet tour

2006-08-15T02:03:00.000-07:00

I love to roller blade, because he will hold my hands while we skate. The feeling kind of reminisce a young and innocent me, wishfully thinking if he has feelings for me, hoping that he will like me? Lols, how i wish we could just skate throught the entire park, with you not letting go of my hands any second...

i love them ! =D

featuring me n judie in teenage mag aug2006

2006-08-01T05:25:00.000-07:00

I was in the teenage mag with judie

cool hur..

yet again

2006-07-21T08:30:00.000-07:00

i miss the awesome four angels in my life, yet-jin-bling-kueini =D i've just chatted with Bling over some gang issues, and said she dont want anything to happen to me, awww.. bling muackx. Lols.
My life is complete, with them.

Phew~ finally i can get to take in some fresh air, because it's WEEKEND! My results, lols, are beyond hopeless. *BOO* <--- nice results huh? anyway, i'm getting tired of teacher repeating the holistic education in Singapore, it's so boring. Lifes great, with my new toy.

flashbacks ( picture speaks a thousand words, heh, now i've got more then 6000 words in this entry)

In conclusion, life is wonderful with O5S5. Lols.

If tomorrow never come.

2006-07-07T00:06:00.000-07:00

Yet again, the song "if tomorrow never come" circles around my mind. Aww, i miss him, haha.

Perhaps, they thought i do not care anymore. Is it that i did not leave behind any foot print that is deep enough to be seen, to be reminisced, after all these years? I'm always like that, so ridiculously childish when it comes to solving problems, even small problem that shouldn't exist, because i simply avoid it and walk away. Pretending i do not care, but deep down i do. But i've got to know what is the problem they are behaving the way they do, or maybe, i'm just too sensitive. I guess only my parents and him is always there to tolerate my everything. Lols, here i'm reprimanding myself. Exam stress i guess, physics is the always subject that jerked my emotions during exam periods. STUPID! Here i am, cursing and swearing again. Lols, i'm tired now :(

School's great today, because there isn't any lessons. But the physic examinations today seemed to wheck many people's day up. Lols, especially me, *shrugging* Cheer up guys. Anyway, I've got to study for other subjects already, or else mr chen is going to have a hard time, talking to my mummy, and yea, till then, i'll see you guys on Tuesday, all the best everybody! :)

i'm crazy!

Perhaps.

2006-07-03T23:47:00.000-07:00

The only one for me is you and one for you is me, so happy together...

maybe, maybe not..

2006-07-02T23:04:00.000-07:00

It's human nature to pressume they are right, in all cases. One thing that i know, Saints don't gossip. I'm not one though. Lols, It's been a busy week. Good thing, because then, i would have sufficient reason not to study. =X what a LOSER freak i am, but who cares!

time flys.

2006-06-25T05:59:00.000-07:00

I thought i would be able to fly. But the thought that my holiday is just going to end in a few hours time tore the wings off me. Suddenly, thoughts turned to a dream, as i see the candles burning rapidly, reaching the end real fast. The aroma of the candle just slowly disappear. By the time i wake up from this dream, i'll have to drag myself to school already. Lols, time flys.

I'm not the kind of person who will show my inner feelings. Maybe till my limit? Lols, i know that for a relationship to work out and continue, there should be trust and love. I should be contented. I have my boy who would encourage me always. Friends, from my class, Msn, church, secondary sch etc. Why is my life feeling so incomplete then?
Real friends, who will stick to each other, or talk on the phone for hours? i think real friends dont always have to say everything to each another in order to make their presence known. I guess presence should be felt. I know when is she feeling down, but does that means i'm her best friend? for that, i really dont know. Lols, i'm like so pessimistic, maybe its because of her, because she's just matters to me. We are still in talking terms, for all that matters...

<3

holidays ending.

2006-06-23T01:24:00.000-07:00

In a blink of an eye, my holiday is ending. Soon, misery will start to get the better half of me, my mood and everything. So wanting to be like a little girl crying to her mother, "arghx, i don wanna go to sch mom, i've not been studying for my exams." Lols, sounded real crap but i think i might just try telling her on sunday night. Lols. Wth, Actually, no big deal what, Just go to the clinic and get two weeks Mc(ya right, as if the doctor wil be so retarded to give me) Hee. Anyway, my holiday is so plain, i have just realised. No party, no beach games, no chance to visit tokyo or the Disneyland in Hongkong etc. Just some k-box sessions, shoppings, pool, movies and date everyday ? and yea, my holidays are ending just like that. Actually, its kind of predicted that my holiday will be so boring. I don't like sun tanning, camping/hiking can kill me, and i don't go "chiong" (mummy say no good!) Lol, i think sleeping is the next best alternative for me, besides going Shopping everyday because of GSS(everywhere in town is so packed as if all the shopping malls wil shut downafter GSS).

I miss the times when we would rush down to the neopint machines to take neoprints after school. Life was great then, except that my pocket money is just 5 bucks a day and my results never cause my parents to be proud of me. But, all doesn't matter because i have her.To me, she's pretty, hot, cute, kind etc, anything that a girl would ask for. I enjoyed going out with her, love choosing presents for her birthday, doing anything that she would be happy. (i'm straight and attached by the way) . I do all these because she's my ~~good~~ best friend. However, maybe its because now that we are both matured and have different way of thinking, hence small misunderstand now cause us to sway apart easily. People say true friendships last forever. She's my ever true friend, and i believed i was once her true friend. Maybe my name no longer rings in her heart, maybe i'm no longer the "me" she used to think. No one, not me or her, could be blame, i guess. She has her friends now, i have mine. But who can help me convey to her that she's stil the no. 1 friend that i've always look upon to? i miss her, i just do...

home sweet home.

2006-06-21T01:51:00.000-07:00

Well, i'm back again, and i guess this past few days have been great. Anyway, i've just cut my fringe again, and it feels like i'm getting ready to go school next week. Wth. I'm not even ready for the MYE.

Talking about this, I guess many people know the right path to success, but how many people actually follows? People shouldn't steal, shouldn't conduct audultery, shouldn't lie or murder, but people still walk on the wrong path. After a break up, why does one still pinned for him or her? When it could probably just lead to tears and sorrows? There was once i had just broke up with someone i had given up so much things for. I felt so down, and i thought the world might just came crashing down on me the next second. One day i read this, "why bother about someone... who doesn't even bother about you?" I guess this sentence kind of pulled me out of misery.

girl, i hope u are fine =D
miss u!

Got to go,

Am i as cute as the two dolls?
lols..

tired.

2006-06-14T22:00:00.000-07:00

Yipee,
i'm finally awake,
after the joy yesterday.
ai yo,
it was suppose to be a class gathering hur
but only me, ronald, audrey, mich and yong jie turned up
=X
but it was really fun.
Early in the morning,
we agreed to meet at habour front
then head to sentosa
We went Kayaking
So fun la
hees,
We packed out about evening
but the toliet so many people
=/
Night was also fun
i went shopping with alex and his two girl friends.
Lols,
but shops at marina square was almost closed
by the time we reached.
yea,
Reached home at about 12am.
Woohoo~

So cute right?

news

2006-06-12T20:22:00.000-07:00

Ok guys,
AmberJewels at *Scape (Behind Cineleisure) on 24th June, 1 - 7pm.
Support =)

Early in the morning
i woke up,
got nothing better to do,
went online and bugged people to sent me songs
Thanks kor!
but he stil uses Lime wire to dl songs
=X
Later police catch how?
lols, cursing him..
wahahaha~
Must be careful lah
ok..

i want to buy demin jacket
ARGHX!
cant find one suitable one
=)
and a white demin skirt
and a black leather belt
and the list goes on forever
lalala~
tomorrow going to sentosa!!
YIPEE~
(like no link?)

i've to go bath soon
have to go out later..
with my dearest
Lols..
Aww..
but so tired,
i'll go take a short nap first!

tata~

changes

2006-06-11T23:28:00.000-07:00

heys,
class outing on wed? happy.
Sun tanning session with O5S5,
hees, so Paisae!
=X
but planned with candy that I'm going out with her
because I've forgotten about that day.
Woohoo~
I'll tear myself into two.
lols...
well, I'm painting my finger nails now
*Bright Pink**
hees.
i miss my dear =D

[it takes 2 hands to clap, i guess]]

had fun yesterday =D

2006-06-10T20:49:00.000-07:00

I earned fifty bucks yesterday! Lols, it was easy job though, because we just had to helped out in a company family day at NTU, and the best part is, we get real busy only when the event started at about 9am till 1pm. Lalala~ Audrey, next time if there is Lobang, must call me! Lols.. After that, I went shopping with my friends, and bought two sexy tops =D , hees. Think about 10 plus, I went to meet Jude <3>
Suntec city were having mid-night sales, however, we were both too tired, hence we went to the pacific cafe near city hall Mrt station, and slack there. After which, his parents came to fetch us home. So tired, but so fun! When i reach home, it was almost 2 am. Hees.

busy life..

2006-06-08T22:34:00.000-07:00

I didn't go for math lesson today. Lols, when i change my uniform, i crawled back to my nest and sleep. Head very pain arhx! hmmm, tomorrow i have to help out at ntu, till about 1pm. Baoling has to go for her CCA at simei, Jin, yet and kuei ni will sleep til about 12 plus, so settle, jin hui say meet at 2 pm? at jurong east? ok everybody? i kind of miss meeting bar, lols.
all right, tonight, after yet wei's paper, then we'll plan. i've got to study too. =( very sian.

1st year =D

2006-06-07T18:58:00.000-07:00

It was yesterday, till i finally realized what true happiness is.
Happy 1st year anniversary Dear !

<3

2006-06-05T22:48:00.000-07:00

If u stop liking a person u used to like
all u need to do is to close ur ears
but if u try to close ur eyes
love turns into a drop of tears
& remain in ur heart forever...

gosh.

2006-06-05T07:03:00.000-07:00

Cousin came to sleep over at my place. No, it should be my room. wa lao! i cannot talk to my dear to night. lols, dots...
Went to town with audrey. i saw her hair, very silky, then suit her alot. We then went shopping around, and i bought some cosmetic stuff again. Mich never come =((
First time going shopping with her on a sat afternoon. lols, it was very fun lah, because we crapped hell lot. haha~

Soon, we(other 05S5 people) have to go buy someone's birthday present ler. Guys, when??

i miss them, the usual them, jin bling yet and kuei. lols, and yea, sat is approaching soon =D

I hope my life gets better, as day goes by. Dear, i can't wait till wed, counting down the seconds... <3

Same old brand new me.

2006-06-02T22:25:00.000-07:00

Guys, i'm back, after so long. it's indeed a great way to start my second half of year 2006. i've got new blogskin, new tagboard(i think the old tagboard had expired or something). So much things have happened. (All of these months, i've been thinking about many things, and i realised that instead of hating, i should just forget that i've known them.)Last sat was an exciting day to begin my holiday with.
Yet, Bling and me went to the meeting bar(Bling's kor bar). We tried many drinks, like rebeina + vodka, tequila pop & Lamborghini. to be truthful, i only drank the vodka. Lols, i think i can't take alcohol? hee hee, then they slept over at my place. The second day was even more fascinating, because we went shopping. Actually, it was just a pinch-of-salt kind of shopping. With the coming GSS, Za products had 35% off, lols, Grab!!! Unfortunately, Jin and Kuei didn't come. =( nvm, June 10 is arriving, and i'm going to grab that skirt real soon =D we are going to have fun, loads of fun on that day again. Guys, whose house are we sleeping over again?
Can't wait to see Audrey's hair. Maybe i'll threaten her with my scissors. Hee hee. Holidays ain't much fun. I miss so many people, and the worst part is the mid year exams coming right after the june holidays.
I'm going to cut my finge again, real soon! no more mop fringe. lols..
Dear, it is going to be our 1st year soon. Thanks for everything! i love u loads...

m.f.

2006-01-06T20:37:00.000-08:00

wad a geat wae to start my year 2
it sucks totallly
hmmm
but my class they rox la
jus tat the teachers ther r all
wad i can saE ISH
I JUS DON LIKE THEM LAHX
hahax,
somehow it seems tat i haf offended someone
but i didn't
i sae again
I DIDN'T
aniwae
i don gif ani god damn shit bout it
its ur business the wae u r behavin
but i feel even more contented without havin u in my life
yea
so yea
endin off..
so let it be tat wae
i am livin fine and happi bout it

SupriseD daE...

2005-12-28T07:11:00.000-08:00

Was a short but great day at suntec todae
went fer lunch at the foodcourt
having handmade noodles which
we craved fer =))
then went to play DDR , but
saw this machine filled with
soft toys , and she said she wanted
one of it. so tried mah luck,
prayed to god tt i could catch it.
suprisingly i caught it with just $2
hahax . she was sooo happi n jumped
n hugged mi ^^ i was so
happi too tt i could make u happi darling^^
then went to
play our DDR.
todae was a draw hahax..
( will do better the next time darling)
then the dae ends here as we took mrt
home ^^

blogged: by jude

sprayin snow ytd..

2005-12-25T06:46:00.000-08:00

tis year's xmas was so fun
when the clock striked twelve
everyone startin sprayin snow frm snow cans
(he bought 48 cans)
hahax,
even him spray at me!
arghx
but, stil
i reminisce the time spent together ytd
somehow
everythin was so pure
our relationship
the look frm his eyes
it jus looked so true
dunno how or wad ever
i cried
while lying on his shoulder
its been long, since i've seen him again
ytd
dunno why i cried
was it becuz of wad he had prepared fer mi ytd
or was it be cuz i was afraid of our future
both?
but more on the latter
wad wil i do without him
the thoughts jus keep crossing my mind
i love him more then any words could describe
but, some how past can cause gr8 impact on the future
i believe no one can forget it either
ima not dwelling back
ima jus thinking la.
hahas,
jus very happy to have him
to me,
he's a prefect sweetest bf =D
thanks for everything dearest!
to forget everythin tat's in the past
then he piggyback mi back to the end part of esplanade
wher his father sent us back hme
time:2 plus in the mornin..

yipeex.

2005-12-20T05:44:00.000-08:00

woke up early in the morning
guess wad
my mother ask if i wanted to dye hair
cuz she wanted to
so we went to salon
hahax,
and hightlighted our hairs
but i can only highlight a few strands
next year sch reopen
and i haf to drag myself to sch again
waox
sianx
oh well
wad can i do?

praying fer x'mas eve to come quickly
i'll be having dinner at some
hotel near victoria street
wif jude and his parents
wahax,
then we can go party ~

something's not rite
-

fuckin hell dae

2005-12-18T06:52:00.000-08:00

very fan now
dunno for wad.

went to the camp
i tot maybe i cud see if we wil stil haf a chance
to be siblings again
hahax,
but the way i see
its not possible bahs
no way
let's not play game anymore
i wont hold on to the tot tat i wil call him
korkor anymore
i don disturb him, or msg him, or bother him
tat's all i can do,
think that's the best solution
to end off all those thoughts tat i have in my mind
that one day we can be siblings again
..

all the best to him and his future.
i thank him for everythin he did for mi once.
yea,
..

very chilldish i noe
tis entry's like some small kidd
small gal,

hmmm..
having a fragile heart,
doesnt mean u r weak
i believe i am strong,
at least i can be
when jude's ard..
i love him loads
dunno how long we can last
at least ima happy
now-
who noes the future.
haiix..

miss someone-

2005-12-12T20:08:00.000-08:00

somehow
one innocent incident
can relate everythin back to the past..
tinking back
i was truely happi
we went to church together
we ate anderson ice cream together
we window shopping together
but why things doesn't always turn out the way u wanted it to be.
but i am happy
he stil remembers me.
i want him to know
i miss him alot alot..
hahax,
i stil miss him
my older kor =D
hoping to talk to him again..

CHC finally shifted to expo
but to me
CHC ish my past too.
i'm not backsiding,
i'm just not returnin to CHC
i stil love GOD,
the way GOD loves mi.

tink i saw joseph ytd,
if i'm not wrong
i stil tink his hair style rocks!
hahax,

one last thing,
dearest,
i love u loads..
=D
thank you for everything..

ps:i gonna be the top DDR dancer one dae.
=X

lalala~

2005-12-02T06:47:00.000-08:00

next wk,
ima goin jude's attachment restuarant to eat wif mah parents
support him mahs
mah papa likes jude leix,
don like mi ler..
wonderin wad the outcome wud be,
wil he knee down
take out one ring
and sae
" wil u marry me?"
hahx..
then mah parents wil
"oh.. yes.. yes.. u can tak emah daughter's hand!!!"
hahaha~
sorri..
i abit mad ler..
aniway,
ima fine ler,
thanks so much tis 2 daes,
wen i was sick..
*applause**
hahax~
so happi
woo-la-la..
but i jobless?
how?

dAR geT well sooN

2005-11-30T07:12:00.000-08:00

i woke up in the morning
& recieved call frm mah dearest
saying she was unwell.....
as mah mind cant stop
worring ,i rushed down to
her place to take gd care
of her .

she was realli feeling
very uneasy... mah heart
breaks too... when i saw her
in pain.. n there ish nth much i
can do to ease her pain.. =((
took her to a doctor n brought her hm..
took care of her untill 4.15, as her mum
would be on the way hm by then
so i gtg unwillingly as i"m realli worried

tonite will be the nite i "ll be
missing u thru da nite..
cant live a day without
ur voice . but i will think of ya
i mah dreams =))

[___`euu.R.mah.princess.i"ll.
take.gd.care.of.ya.as.how.i.
took.gd.care.of.euu.todae.
fer.da.rest.of.mah.life.^^ _ _ _]

blogged by jude;-)

worry

2005-11-25T23:18:00.000-08:00

suddenly
ima tinkin of mah future
whether shld i stay in MI
or go poly
or transfer to Ijc,
wad if i cant do well next year
and cant be promoted
becuz next year
the year one students wil be takin on the new syllubus,
and if i cant get promoted to year 3,
i wil haf to go back to year 1.
if Ijc can take mi,
then i can start yr 1 all over again
then study hard!

hahax,
wil tat be possible..
R5-21.. jus one mor point..
and i haf to be at MI..

sianx..

mum's mad

2005-11-10T10:51:00.000-08:00

mama bought new bed
and she's admirin it every second
she's at hme
-.-
mah dad shld be sad
but he's also so hapi tat mah mama got a new bed fer herself
reason:
mah dad snores!
so she ish sleepin @ pc's room.
walaox,
so big..
nono
shld be so old ler
stil like small kidd-

anyway
goin interview tmr at isetan
nono
shhldn't call it interview
cuz limin sae conifrm can get in one
=))
but but..
if i haf to work nite everydae
then then
i cant see mah seven and nine oclock show
-.-
wad the hell!

so tired

see mah dark rings..
i nid mor slp..
tata~

[bring me to a far away place, where our dreams soar high
and.. we can be together forever ]]

wahax

2005-11-09T23:44:00.000-08:00

so long since i updated mah blog
yea
and i'm gonna start workin next wk.
wahax.
dunno if i wil be sacked?
in 3 days?
limin..
we cannot get sack leix
wahhaax..

anw,
i'm enjoyin mah holidaes
pple..
come buy toy frm mi worhx
at isetan toy department
=))

hahax
oh yea..
read somethin frm magazine
so damn furni..

da time when a gal's tryin too hard to be sexy
iis when her BF gets mistaken 4 her pimp!
or worst stil, wen her clothes get lost in a washin machine..
lols..

tata~
[u r mah sunshine, mah oi sunshin, u mkae mi happi, wen skies r grey..]]

baby i miz u alot

2005-11-02T05:33:00.000-08:00

todae ish realli a hard
day fer mi to get on =((
i reall miz her alot..
whole dae at hm.. doing nth..
just keep thinking of u baby.
evening cook dinner fer mah
parents to eat..
quite delicious bahx...
how i wish baby u could
eat with mi =l i realli dunno how
express out how much i mizz u..
i"ll not be hearing ur voice tonite..
realli sad now.. dar i realli realli miz u alot..
i dunno how to slp wihtout hearing yor voice
just hope u would cum hm
soon ......

[baby.ur.presence.means.alot.to.mi.now___]
____`cant.live.a.dae.even.without.ur.shadow]
`dar.hurry.come.back.dear.dear.miz.u.alot.alot]

blogged by jude

Forever together

2005-11-01T06:01:00.000-08:00

todae i had a great dae with her=))
we headed fer sentosa [siloso beach]
in da morning . thought sentosa
should be a high class resort..
but how i no the lockers there suxx!!
got eaten $3 by da lockers..
luckily managed to claimed it back >.<
then we went straight to the beach side
she look realli fabulous todae.. dar i
hope i did make u happi todae =))
then we went sun tanning without
any sunblock lotion hahax
[ act hero] sia in the end
we both got burn all around our body..
but at least we realli enjoyed our
self & we call it a dae..

dar.. i realli gonna mizz u alot alot..
rmb i still wan to take gd care of ya n to dote u more more ^^
whenever u miz mi just look at the stars tt we have seen it together
promiise mi to cum back k cuz i need u in mah life

god bless u love u always

____`u will.always.be.in.mah.heartt]
[i'll.be.waiting.ffer.euu_______`

blogged by jude

sorrow?

2005-10-29T22:33:00.000-07:00

well
lyfe jus suck!
maybe its jus mah opinion.
but cant it be fairer?
why cant everybody
be happy with the
outcome
dunno lahx,
but fate just bought us together
and i noe soon,
we'l be separated..
i treasure frenx alot
i nid them too
all the time
the time we spent together
i can't bear to forget all
i don wanna lose all the wonderful memories
but i noe
as time passes
we'l drift
but i wanna pray..
i hope god wil do somethin tat wil ease those pains
the unbearable tots tat r goin thru mah frenx mind,
and i cant lighten their load.
i realli dunno wad shld i do
didn't dare msg or call
them whom seems close to mah heart
for fear it might affect their mood..

-endin these entry
i just wanna sae
mah frens
mah best frens,
u haf been a gr8 pals in mah life in millenia institude
no matter wad happens in the near future
i wil not forget you all
and the happy times together
thank u!
li min n patricia=))

always together

2005-10-29T11:13:00.000-07:00

todae went j8 to watch
"april snow" with her
wanted to play
DDR after tt but
then the senario
there made us reluctant
to get on the machine.
i was a bit dull at
tt period of time,
so we went to [ya kun kaya toast]
she made mi happi
again by her touching
words tt penetrate thru..
mah heart ^^
Dar i love u
i"ll break ur heart no more ever =))
then i sent her hm
on the way i piggy baack her
though mah leg couldn't carry any longer
but becuz i love her
i carried on...........

[:+:]___Dar.i.dun.love.euu.no.more`]

blogged by jude

haixx

2005-10-02T12:53:00.000-07:00

--- Exams ---

exams...

2005-09-26T17:38:00.000-07:00

promote or retain???

i dunno!!
time ish running out..
guess i gotta run
fast!

tata~
one more thing..
mah birthdae comin!!
.
.
.
mah birthdae wish
[[i'll make it thru, if u were to come back once again..
into mah life..]]

becuz dear, i miss u so..

shit..

2005-09-17T19:57:00.000-07:00

went back to yjc ytd..
waox..
i miss times there..
slack`in everydae de
and all mah frenx..
love them to bits..

wad a day fer mi
=/
study all dae..
and pat msg mi
sayin her new hair cut was like shit
but tink mah life mor shit sia
tmd
mah mp3 n some ey shadow thingy just went to heaven
all becuz i tried to be gud
and wash mah bag..
n guess wad..
mp3 everythin all inside the small compartment..

mah life ish all bout books,
sia lahx
i'm like a geek now..
studyin every single second..

arghx.. ming tian hui geng hao!!!!
mahx only faith..

[[i miss him..
i jus do..
i wil love him til the end]]
... u n mi.. so happy together ...

2005-09-14T08:36:00.000-07:00

exams comin
and i'm hell lots studyin
i'm gettin all stressed up
its hard to breathe..
but one thing's fer sure
i nv wanna be left all alone
in year one again..

i love gp=))

jin"birthdae..

2005-09-10T11:01:00.000-07:00

happi birthdae ger..
lim jin hui..
hahax =))

went to centre pt's pizza hut to eat
celebrate ah jin's birthdae..
den went to lido see " the cave" wif him
lols
one aunt gave mi two roses
wen i bought mineral water frm her
so sweet..

was very very tired on mah way hme,
ther's a short distance to mah lift,
he carried mi ther
somehow, ummm..
realli..
i can feel his warmth,
his true love fer mi
dunno why, i just feel so loved..
does tis means we r meant to be?
~*~* lols *~*~

yang yang came to find mi
how i miss him
mahx adorable baby cousin =))

[[ its not just a smile.. its a smile tat slowly feels mahx heart.. mah lonely tainted heart. ` ]]

i U
-wif all mah heart, i thank u dear, fer makin mah world colourful again..

shootin starx

2005-09-05T23:32:00.000-07:00

`*~*~*~ Every star represents the " special feelin "
tat lovers haf fer each other
wen hearts are broken,
the star cried
and dipped frm the skies
we call them shootin starx.. `*~*~*`

extracted frm kenneth's blog
http://windsofdestiny-kenneth.blogspot.com
find it very meaningful..
ther's mani quotes there=))

[[ is ti s ou r de st iny is t is th e en di n w il th e st or y ev er be c om plet ed one da e? ]]

down wif depression..

2005-09-03T16:03:00.000-07:00

mahx fren.. shan't reveal his name.
he said.. if u cant be the first to get wad u desire..
then be the last one.. or rather more specific...
be the last person to walk in his heart..
its him u love..
wad if one dae he ish goin to marry to another ger
but he tels u his heart oni belongs to u..
wad wil u do..
wil u be happi..
i said 99% of all guyx r "sei" de..
he said no. 100% r all "sei"
of else they r gay..
if in tis case..
dear! r u gay?
jkin ^^

to mi..
love ish bout trust..
its not bout virginity, kisses or wad so ever..
in a relationship
muz be frank mahx
if not frank
then isn't it a fling?

Can you imagine no love,
pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you
even when I know you're wrong
Can you imagine no first dance,
freeze dried romance five-hour phone conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had . . . and me

-drops of jupiter(train)

[[dear, its becuz i love u so much, tat i feel so hurt, so betrayed.. ]]

gr8 day wif him..

2005-08-28T22:37:00.000-07:00

yea yea
at least now i feel free
i feel happi
i haf no troubles cloudin above mah head
hahax..
soaked in a pool of xin fu(kenneth sae de)
tink its true bahs=))

went to li min's bbq
saw liz
she had yellow painted finger nails
hahax
she look so coolx..
but she's leavin fer canada
(edison's hometown)
darn!
I WAN GO TOO..
wil miz her so much..
i asked her bf if he wil miz her
he sae tat he cant sae no..
but he isn't gonna gif her ani pressure
how nice..
hahax..
i wonder if i cud handle long distance relationship.
hahax
i nv wan it!!!!

hahax..
i had a reali gr8 time
i thank him n all mah frenx(kai wei.. li min.. pat.. blehx..) fer dat
and i wanna sae..
i realli love him..
=))

[[i'm prayin. i'l be wif u 4eva. n i noe i'l be dreamin of u tonite.. ]]

fun?

2005-08-26T23:04:00.000-07:00

u tink ish very fun?
to make mi cry
bluffin mi tat u passed away?
u noe tat i stil care fer u
and yet u do tis to mi
is unlike wad a human shld do lorx
kor.. i used to respect u alot lor
but to tink u cud bluf mi tis..
u haf the rite nt to tok to mi
tink now i haf the rite to get mad too bahs
all the best den..

went town find him
he made jelly
=))
den went shoppin at wisma ^^
after dat went to tiong baru fer dinner wif mama..
the mini streamboat thingy..
finally found tis blue n pink de eye shadow..
hahax

kai wei
sorri worhx
cant pei ya todae
hahax
mis yea=))

oh ..
patricia
don sad yea
alex go cip 2 wks oni
heex
u tink he go there c michael jackson fren mahx
stil got who to see rite
smile!
at least got mi
i gong gong one
but also can make u happi
=))

tmr goin to bbq..
hopes everythin goes well

[[ if time can turn anticlockwise.. i'll not choose to noe u.. its easi to forgive.. but impossible to forget u.. ]]

town town..

2005-08-21T23:06:00.000-07:00

i ate tis mini icecream ytd..
small small de..
and i haf the last bite =P
pple r gettin much cleverer
to invent tis
hahax.

went to k box wif bling yet jin n queeni
hahax
celebrate blings's birthdae
but.. it seems furni..
err
cuz bling kept singin those songs like
"the dae u went away.. or err colours of the wind"
hahax
maybe she go k box sianx ler lahx
so sing some not so pop songs
hahax
yet wei buy same shoe as mi
COPY CAT arhx
hahax..
we wil mit out some dae again..
hahax..

went to mit him fer dinner
ate han's salad n fish n chip
then we walk n walk n walk
hahax..
been long since we went out til so late ler
its realli diff being out in the nite
wen u can see all the beautiful lightnin on the streets of orchard road
and wen the nite wind just gently blow
hahax
even holdin hands and not speakin anothin feels like heaven..

[[eUu mAke mii sMiLe.. ]]

donate blood

2005-08-18T22:19:00.000-07:00

donated blood todae
it was coolx..
i mean.. there's not much pain mahx
hahax..
and they gave mi iron tablets fer soveniors
lols..
but now mah left hand no strength ler
first time mahs
hahax..
but wad's ironic to mi was dat the painkiller needle was even more painful den the donatin blood thingy sia..

nothin happen much
ytd went back to unity wif yong wei n kai wei
last time in sec sch so fun one
maybe everyone was innocent there then..
hahax..

todae got one person go ask yong wei fer her no.
hahax
her face blushed like hell
go fer wad ish best fer ya ok ger..
hahax.. =))

lala~ ask mi wad wil i do if mah bf carries another ger..
hahax..
i sae i wil kill mah bf =PpP
but wil he..
its just the beginnin
where i tot i might be in a story of a fairy tale..
**pleasantville**
hahax
but i'm believin in him..
i believe we can make it til the end..
tink tis might be interestin
but abit NC-16 sia
lala told mi de
[[virginity ish nt a dignity, its just a lack of opportunity.]]
becum in gp todae
teacher was discussin wif the topic-no sex, no drug - no danger of catchin virus
hahax
"havin casual sex and doin intravenous drug ish no diff frm swimmin at a beach u noe ish infested wif sharks, hence, swim at ur own peril.. if u muz, den make sure u bought insurance, can swim realli fast, n haf a lifeboat nearby.."

tis ish quite true lorx..
so arghx..
xiao didi xiao meimei arhx
don play play ahx..
hahax

[[life's a wonder.. next moment.. u r wif tat person whom might be someone u hate b4.]]

hee hee

2005-08-15T22:14:00.000-07:00

PE
i fail mah incline pull up
initially oni did 0
then second attempt
did 3
arghx..
how am i gonna survive in MI
maybe i'l go crazy soon
then
first time i handed it mah eng assignment
which i did it the nite b4
waox
i noe chee bork wanted to pat mah head
and sae " well done"
hahax..
his expression was werid
like don believe mi n pat handed up ler
oh ya
then i took jamas de ck eternity
n spray on yong wei
hahax
then in turn
she spray on mi again
hahax
the smell's unique
realli nice
then chinese lesson
wanteds to li siaox him,
den ask him lent again
he sae wao.. " waste mahs eternity arhx"
den make ehx furni face
oh yea..
he uses a esprite de towel
coolx huh
hahax
lotsa furni pple in mah sch sia
yea..
stil remb tan xiao uses his gasypi(dunno how to spell) de clay
as glue
to stick papers
hahax..

he bought mi sushi after sch
we went to xplore courts
nice tv
hahax
thenheaded to bt timah plaza see pets
hahax
just to wait fer limin n yong wei
hahax
they nv do physic lahx
see lahx!!stil got tat gua kai wei
hahax
somethin gr8 happen arhx
hahax
li min gr8 encounter which she wud nv forget tis lifetime
hahax(go ask her)
she n kai wei act opera

yea
kor(jacky) sae malu sia
mi n pat everytime in sch shout so loud
"KOR"
hahax
then i sae
"den call u dearie mehx?"
hahax
he sae "noOOooooOO"
hahax

korkor..
i'm sorri
n i sae it hundred million times
forgive mi n ... jude
we r stil waitin fer the dae
wen u wil come back to our life
n be our kor again bahs
=))

kai wei
thanks fer everything
remb
wen sad u muz call mi arhx
i sad i also call u
noe it hurts u tat i did all those stuff
but u also arhx
hahax
=))

oh yea
bling birthdae comin worhx..
tis sundae..
earli happi birthdae worhx ger!

i told someone
althou wad's past ish past
but we can make the past into present de
if we wan to
sometime ish just the emotion tat has taken someone over
tat forced someone to do undesirable stuff..
pple don get tied down in a relationship
they get bonded
heart's linked as one.
pat suddenly asked mi" wad actually r u nt happy wif jude"
thou i pretended to be "siaox"
i was actually pounderin over tis qn
wadever he does, he tried to make mi happi
makes mi feel dat he cares
makes mi feel loved
maybe i haf been a lousy gf
but i'l try to be one
to show him n all of mah frenx dat i truly do mean wad i sae
dat i love him..

new blogskin

2005-08-14T12:43:00.000-07:00

special thanks to mah bestie yong wei
*applause**
hahax
cuz she made a new blogskin fer mii
thanks worhx
cuz itS
[[EDISON CHEN.]]

just read the news papers
Edison real sis was caught handling drugs
AGAIN!
real sad case
cuz she isn't allow to be bail out tis time
till further notice

another sad thingy
mah estate three blks away frm mah blk
some one commited suicide ytd mornin
because she fall frm an extremely high level 28 floor
her body landed on the ground
while head at the second level
i pray tat she wil rest in peace!

YTD nite
went to marina south
wif him
i tot we cud fly kite ther
but sadly
ther's functions
so we headed to the steamboat area
and eat
oil splattered everywhere sia
yong wei
ur gud idea lahx
tink i bbq mah own hand sia
hahax
we cant finish everything
hence we dumped everythn back into the soup
then **RUN**
hahax
i was realli happi ytd
forgettin all mah worries=))

..time wil prove one thing bahs
dat mah heart fer u ish true..
regardless of rain or shine
i'll be there fer u..

haiix

2005-08-12T23:11:00.000-07:00

kor
i didn't get attached once u left mi
i was wif him fer two month plus ler
but i kept it frm u
fer fear it might ruin our siblings relationship
but guess we both lost it bahs
how hard i kept it frm u
jude also did his best
he isn't happi too
but he tried his best
so u cud be happi
all the things i did
tot cud savage our relationship
if ever things might come to tis stage
but u r always thinkin its all fer mah own gud
no it isn't totally..
pls understand kor.. =))

went to sim lim wif him n li min kai wei n pat
then went to slack` at bugis junction
sorri guys
pat n kai wei
i didn't mean to do wad i did
cuz in the past
but cant help it
i do wad i did
and i feel damn hurt ytd
forgive mi!
i'm copin..
i'm happi to haf ur by mah side.

just lie on his shoulder todae
he just stood in front of mi
we spoke nothin
i was too sad to face him
or dunno how to
finally
he asked mi wad happen
again n again
didn't noe wad i was doin
i love him
but i dunno how to open up mah hearts to him
was on the verge of cryin
til he offer mi a warm embrace
tellin mi everythin wud be fine
things wil stil be the same between us
i was at a lost of words
tot he wud be unhappy
in the end i told him wad reali happen

i'l be lovin u more then ytd
and less then tmr =))
thanks fer everything..

lovin dae

2005-08-10T22:06:00.000-07:00

had a fun dae ytd
hahax
went to his aunt place
cousin celebrate bdae
err
food damn nice lahx
hahax

sity hall was packed like sardine
cuz of national dae mahs
" happi birthdae to u singapore!"
went to tis petal restaurant
near city hall ther
had our candle lite dinner
hahax
but sadly
missed the fire works
heard was very beautiful
but nvm
thers always next year..
fer both of us to see together bahs=))

seriously
i do love him now
cuz he manage to show mi wad a real guy shld do
to make a ger melt her heart
and change the perception tat all guyz doesn't treat a ger seriously
hahax
warms mah heart to noe dat ther's a guy tat truely loves mi
somedae wen an angel appear in mah life
and ask mi wad wud i wish fer
i wud wan a guy tat guy who truely loves mi to be wif mi 4eva
nv let mah heart break again
i wan him to be the one.. =))

li min arhx..
don hold on ler hao mahs
he's tearin up ur heart dae by dae
lett go
and u wil find true happiness
it happened to mi
dear ger
u r great=))
u deserve beta
hahax

[[ ur like a dream came true`**]]

so fun ytd..

2005-08-07T10:42:00.000-07:00

korkor
tink til tis stage ler
i also dunno wad to sae or do
don wanna sae " ur be mah kor 4eva in mah heart no matter wad"
cuz its too hurtin
fer both u n mi
i'm sad too (whether u believe it or not)
i haf mah reasons fer doin everythin de
everytime u consoled mi
wen i am down
cuz of jj.. gao xin or sam
i realli appreciate everythin u haf done fer mi
numerous memories lorx
just usin ur hp to take pics alone
hahax
but since u choose to leave
don tink i haf the right to stop u ler
cuz its diff now
i cant gif u the happiness u wan
i am oni be ur mei
but u don wan tis happiness
nvm
study hard fer ur os bahs
jus fufil tis one wish
fer mi
other promises i wont care ler yarx
all the best
i'l welcome u back anitime kor=))
aft u haf reali tot thru...

rainbows wil form soon
fer mi n fer u
i'l be happi
i tink so..

ytd was so fun
went orchard
bought mah havaianas slipper
brite pink de worhx
hahax...

err
watch "the truth about love"
quite nice lahx the movie
saes about a ger n her hubby
cuz her hubby ish always busy wif his work
no time fer their sex life
hahax
so in the end she fell fer her hubby's best fren
hahax..

took neo print
then went taka delifrance makan
waox
dunno wad happen sia
change alort leix
ate pizza wif him
so happi
we share one pizza
n ice-cream

then went hme ler
so glad
at least i am more happi now
2 months ler
thanks fer makin mi so happi everydae

[[tian shan de yan lei - ta hao xiang dong wo de xin shui`]]

miz him

2005-08-04T21:36:00.000-07:00

err
went westmall buy lotsa stuff
missin someone
badly?
ahhax
sch pourin in e mornin
so cold
shiverin all dae
cuz all lessons in leture theatre
waox
sch playin prank on us isit
big hot dae in clz rm
so big rain gif us aircon rm
waox..
maybe everythin happens fer a reason de
now i lookin at mah room de wall
why pink in colour de i wonder
ahhax
sianx sianx
teddy told mi unity won dunno wad finals in table tennis
waox
coolx leix
i leave unity ler then they win
ahhax

all frens ard mi
mood very down
limin yong wei...
dunno lahx
i noe
sure pms rite
ahhax

actually
nothin to be sad bout wad
sad fer 60 s
u lost 1 min of happinness
lalala~
love changes a person
but stil u cant change a demon into a prince
tat's wad i read frm an article
love's not like fairy tale
it shld be a reality thingy
as if
bitter. sweet. sour. hot.
yea..
like dat then fun mahs

kor
i dunno wil come to tis ti bu
i nv wanted it but
nvm bahs
all the best fer ur exams thou=))
do well fer ya exams
i'l be prayin fer ya always
^^

[[ things started to change a lil' like the world's startin to haf colours again.. i tink i love u.. more n more each dae^^]]

town

2005-08-03T22:44:00.000-07:00

went town todae
cuz pat wanna buy pressie fer her beau
ahhax
then bought black shirt lahx..
frm fourskin
[prayin alex wont see tis entry]
ahhax
pressie meant to be surprise de mahx
then walk n walk

guyz..
thanks alort
i'm fine now
dad's fine too
ahhax
he's sleepin like a pig..

i'm fallin deeper n deeper in u...
ish tis mah destiny.. =))

ahhax

2005-08-02T22:47:00.000-07:00

err..
went to try contact lens
somethin like trial pair la
at westmall wif pat they all
ahhax
first they sae i no degree
den they sae wad 75 n 25 degree?
huh..
dunno leix
so in the end took 100 n 200 degree

i told pat..
love ish simple
hen jian dan de
but its people whom made it so complicated
by Comparin
rite?
but who don compare?
lalala~

things seems to haf change
everythin in mah life seems to haf shifted to another planet
like i sae
SEEMS to haf shifted
but reality
i am stil in tis dull borin world
dunno am i runnin away frm those frightful times
i dunno..
but but.. wad can i ever do..
finally.. time ish healin mah soul
so maybe i'd be beta off tis wae

kor
told u ler
no one else wud be mah kor
jude cant be mah kor
don tink i shld even sae sorri
i haf said it too mani times
and i didnt take his money even wen i nid it
pls understand
u tink i nv tink of callin u?
nv tink of goin to find u?
nv tink of msgin u?
ur mah kor u noe
but if i continue to do all tat
wad wud u tink
i don wan gif u false feelins
jude treats mi well
i noe tat
but i nv did mention stuff like u ill treated mi
i nv!
like i sae
i'm hapi to haf a bro like u
if i sae anithin tat hurt u now
how r u gonna study fer ur exams u tel mi..
i nt wei da
but if u fail ur o levels cuz of her
worth it ma
kor
maybe..
u shld save ur tears fer someone whom wont make u cry...

[[ is tis how it end wif a simple telephone call, u left mi here wif nothin at all - `]]

again..

2005-07-31T01:23:00.000-07:00

hmmm
finally can access the net at hme
coolx thin i guess

ytd went fer ptm
parent teacher meetin
horrible i guess
teacher was cruel!
told pat mama tata she mixed wid bad companies
namely mi n li min
one ish day dreamin queen.. while the other ish ah lian
guess the lather ish mi bahs
mi got two f sia..
coolx
nice wae of startin mah year one
soon.. like tim told mi b4 i enter Mi
i wil get kicked out one dae
yea
anione cud guessed it too
sissy chen also sae bout us usin hp in clz
waox
wad a nice guy
nvm
sha't tok bout it animor
gettin real bored..

i nid a change in luck thou`

saw tis quite nice
but doesn't mean a thin la
ahhax
[[ i miss u
like de dessert missin the rain
why do u haf to change
u don haf to be in a relationship to be in love
i'm lettin u gOo
cuz its beta tat wae
i don wan mah heart
smashed once again]]
tis thingy may appeal to mi months ago
but not now ler bahs

ytd so qiaox
saw yet wei
ahhax
n hui yu
in westmall
missin sec life
wishin i cud turn back the time
so no nid go thru so much thingy aft leavin sec sch
wen everythin was so pure n innocent then
wif no worries huh?
at least no one wil sae i look ah lianx
hai yox
sicked of tis comment..

korkor
sometimes wad i do ish fer ur own gud mahx
i reali hope ya wil be happi owaes
like i sae be happi okok
aft o level we go shoppin yarx

am i walkin the rite path?
i dunno
but i guess i am
cuz i'm contended
don bother wad others haf to sae
but i'm reachin fer tis heart
tis time =))

jin hui yet wei baoling
wen we go shoppin again??
kinda bored nows a daes..
maybe i go change mah friendster profile bahs..
tata`

principal office..

2005-07-26T20:13:00.000-07:00

ahhax
now at gugu hse
she jus back frm thailand.

todae big thingy happen sia
mi n yong wei n kai wei in principal office sia
waox.
cuz mi lent yong wei fone in physic clz
den teacher saw
den confiscated it
waox..
so angry sia
den i oni sae wan mah sim card back oni
waox
also don wan gif back
so ahhax..
principal saw
den we tok
den rie letter then gif back ler lorx..
or else must call parent go take arhx?
waox..
if call mah parents i wonder wad the teacher's gonna sae sia
"ur child lent fone to fren.. so i confiscated it"
waox..
funi sia..

why did u contact mi again
ish it reali u?
wil things turn out to be the same again?
wil it be?
maybe i might stil tink
think of the things we use to do
think of the happi times
tink of the times we sing
but..
jus memories lahx
i'm just afraid its nt u
nvm
don wanna tink so much now..
i don tink it wil eva be true bahs
horx??
nahs..

[[ ming ming heng ai ni-` ]]

motherfcukreply..

2005-07-20T09:19:00.000-07:00

ahhax
no one sae its ur fault
but don u find wad u r doin strange?
its not like she sae she hates u OR WAD MAHS
WHY THINGS HAF TO TURN OUT TIS WAE
MAYBE IT MIGHT BE IMPOSSIBLE LER LAH UR TWO
BUT COME TO THINK OF IT
SHE DID TRY LORX..
u dare deny?
maybe she didn't try hard enuff lahx
in ur eyes
but she leix
how u tink she feel
she tries reali hard ler lorx
nvm lahx..
ish ur decision bahs
wad ever it ish
no one hates u lahx..
jus tat we feel unfair to her mahs
hai yax..
nvm lahx..
its ok she sae
since u happi like dat.
all the best lorx..

wad's love
someone tel mi
sianx mah coms til down
how to make someone unhurt in love
its inevitable sometimes
but at least can minimise it mahs
gettin sick n tired of wad's call love
wil he be able to understand mi?
wil he?
maybe just holdin mah hands can make mi feel
at least beta?

erm ermx..

2005-07-19T16:15:00.000-07:00

sianx sianx
so long nv type blog ler worhx
cuz jux shift hse
waox. room so big
mah old hse room like twice of its size leix
den at hme no internet de connection
very lazy go call the pple transfer leix
ahhax

hmmm
fail econs fail physic
waox
wad a nice wae to start a dae i suppose?
ahhax
chou yong wei
chou chou chou yong wei
bully mi ytd lahx..
gud horRr..

hmmm
don understand guyz leix
how can sae wil wait fer a ger til his last breathe
til she sae yes
den l8r sae " oh.. we cant be together bahs"
thou in love there's no rite or wrong
but arhx
tokin also muz got responsibility de bahs
how can like dat de
the ger fell fer him ler mahs
haix yax
why like dat de
=((
am i lucky?
but i noe its realli hard lettin someone go bahs
sometimes cant even lett go lorx
how to?
wen the person did not give u back ur heart
but keep stabbin n stabbin it wif actions?

maybe yi ge yong bao ne dai ti suo you..

korkorx.. thurs ur birthdae ler worhx
HaPpi biRthdAe wOrhx
mi in sch type tis thingy
so maybe thurs cant type ler
unless mi call up the pple
errr.. 1633.. blehx//
stupid starhub
so troublesome..

ermx..
korkor
ur birthdae can i make a wish?
hmmm
find mi one dao sao soon
kae?
ahhax..
den i can go out wif dao sao to shoppin mahs ^.<
u wil be mah korkor 4eva worhx..
u promise de
heex..

[[miSsin.euUu.like neVeRr.befOrRe. ii.wiL.lEtt.gOo. becUz.ii.luRrve.u.sOo ]]*

2005-07-13T08:56:00.000-07:00

wo cut hair le..
wa laox ehx.. >.<"
dun look like human lehx..
eerrrmm..... -.-"all the exam
fault la!!!!
faill,econs,fail physics.so sad
so cut hair lor... =D
enuff of crapz le

tmr catching movie..
cuz exam finally over haiixx..

hoping rainbows will soon
appear in the sky^^

Anthony kor kor. plz rest in peace
=)) i"ll be praying fer euu..

[[ever.since.the.day.euu.when.away.N.leave.mii.lonely.&.cold.mah.life.have.never.been.da.same...i.never.thought.tt.i.could.lurve.another.guy.so.much____]]

for once i let u go...

2005-07-11T07:02:00.000-07:00

she look at him..
she ask him if they wuld b together forever...
he told her..
forever is nothing...
they will b eternal...
she took his words...
they live in their own world..
one day...
she saw him wif another ger..
she den finally understood...
nothing is forever..

[[i m nt ur puppet... u cant control my life.. but we juz wish to b happy.. wif each other by our side..]]**

sianx sianx

2005-07-06T20:41:00.000-07:00

hmmm
pe
late again
teacher kb again
wad sia
run almost twenty rounds leix
so cruel sia
i nv fast -.-
haix yax
very fan de leix
tink mah face got prob lahx
muz go do surgery ler lahx
every teacher findin fault wif mi
arghx

hmmm
todae attend opera again
quite entertainin hor yong wei
ahhax..
no lahx
jux hope u n him wil be happi together mahs
heex

dunno wad mah papa tinkin de leix
wao laox
sae mah piano very bulky
don wan bring to new hse
waox
den throw away mehx
wang ba dan
mah bao bei leix
=((
so bad!
DON WAN TOK TO HIM LER LAHX
arghx..
mah bear bear also
wa laox
i nt childish la
but arhx
i slp wif it de mahs
how can so cruel de
daddy!!!!!!!

ahhax..
come to tink bout it
lookin forward isit bad after all
mi n pearly

mi writin on the sand at the beach
wen can i go there again
shout to the sea
everythin's tat within mi..

mi n pearly...

[[truth's not within mi.. i'm tryin to face reality.. tryin hard tOo..]]**

late again?

2005-07-05T23:49:00.000-07:00

todae started off abit screwed uP?
err
sori worhx yong wei
cuz mi u late
ya la.. u most wei da..
ahhax
teacher saw mah face
den she shake her head
said "again arhx?"
ahhax
mi oni 2nd time late she sae til i like every dae late
but errr
i dunno leix
very gud ler leix
go sch 2 times late oni
i go out like ermx
got twice earli b4?
ahhax
okok
wil try to kick off the habit
but one thing's very furni lahx
teacher kb us
we kb back
teacher suddenly becum quiet
ahhax
den we kb more
err
so arhx be human
muz
REN!
ahhax

actually
ish quite easy de
to accept another person
all u haf to do ish lett go
ahhax
bet mani pple cant accept another one
cuz they cant lett go
cant lett go of their past
harsh lesson i haf learn
gud one
makin mi hate him
ahhax..
=))
i will!

and i wil be happi frm now on
happily eva after..
*muackx i love u*

best fren eva

2005-07-03T23:53:00.000-07:00

beSt fRenx 4eVax..

but if i die, i wil go hell first, so all mah frens can haf more chance to go to heaven bahs.. ahhax..
crappin againx..

yayax
true bahs
i shld nt always lock mahself in the room
god has already open the door
its up to mi whether i wanna walk out
i shld walk out of the room
and face reality
i'm be very happi =))

todae biao jie come singapore
she sae she stayin in kl de hostel now
den she sae her room mate ish her bf
wad sia
waox..
so much freedom
2 person one room
ermx.. ahhax...
enjoyin her life bahs
don tink she can study de lahx

[[ying wei wo sha sha de xiao zhe.. xiang qi ler ni-]]**

haix

2005-06-30T22:59:00.000-07:00

HAPPI BIRTHDAE!!!!!!!!!!
BESTIE..

get CAUGHT fer mah hair again?
wth lahx
dye black 3 times ler lorx
dunno lahx
sissy chen
u biased teacher
against mi then sae lahx
haix ya
but no matter wad
i can confirm one thing
mah hair wont be as healthy(black) as ur hair de
haix ya
pissed off sia

hmmm
HAPPI BIRTHDAE WORHX
heex
yong wei
see i type ur thing second paragraph
cuz sissy chen more impt to mi then u leix
ahhax
no lahx
reali
wif ur talent u wil go far far de
ahhax
n arhx
alex also lahx
ur two gudgud lahx
ok
dun everydae act drama
or soap opera leix
mi tired ler
ahhax

thanks worhx
reali like the amos cookies
heex
*cheers*
mAUCK**

arghx
tmr hair chack
how
i so scare sia
scare tio detention leix
how how
den they cal mah mama papa
den
after detention suspension
den wad arhx
expulsion?(dunno how to spell la)
ahhax
coolx ler la like dat..
no choice but to transfer to poly ler
ahhax
so furni sia
scold people also dunno how to scold
pls lahx
sissy chen
go learn how to be a gud teacher then come lecture mi
blehx~
or else don always sing song gimme hear leix
ear infection liaox =((

pms ler lah mi
hmmm
gonna shift hse ler
next week
yea*
ahhax

oh well
if u don wan us to remain as frens
i'm more then happi wif tis ans
whether u read tis entry anot
i wan u to noe
u r nt a guy bahs
behaves like a loser
sorri to sae dat but
tink u shld reali change ur attitude
cry like a baby?
ahhax
how old ler
the relationship tat fails
ish also ur fault too
don blame everythin on mi.. n on jude
recalls how u used to treat mi
n how i used to tolerate everythin
n how furni wen u cud proclaim u actually loved mi
ahhax
forget it
samson yeo
u go ur wae n i go mine
i was stupid to tink we might stil be frens
well
i was blind i guess!

[[i owaes look back,
cuz i walk away,
tis memories wil last
fer eternity
n all our tears
wil be lost in the rain]]

second dae ler//

2005-06-28T23:53:00.000-07:00

haix
12 more daes to mid year
n wad haf i done
wao laox ehx
i love mah school
i am proud to be in it sia
wth!
tmr take clz foto
EXCITEd!
ahhax
like sec one like dat
but ages nv take ler mahs
mama sae if i can pass all mah sub
she transfer 1000 dollar to mah account
waox!
heex
but i stil no motivation to study leix
*wo shi yong gong de xue sheng*
ahhax
gambate to mah $1000
ahhax

bought AE86 n FC 7 worhx

ahhax
one gif yong wei
another gif mah bro
haix yoxx
mi left wif nothin
gud hor..

got one new tcher call wad mr chee arhx
so hor labina sae l8r muz sae byebye to him
errr
dunno ur get the jokke anot
abit crude lahx
shan't type it here la

oh yax
kenneth arhx
xie xie ni leix
tat cd very coolx
ahhax
thx thx
sorri arhx
tat time forget
*dui bu qi worhx*
heex
next time c mi let u punch

yet wei.. jin hui.. bling.. kuei ni
missin your worhx..
those were the daes

oh yax.. muz fast tmrx fer city harvest church
arise n build
6am - 6am
waox
then first two period ish pe worhx
how sia
god bless mi leix

[[ I'll never break your heart
I'll never make you cry
I'd rather die, then
live without you I'll give you all of me,
honey that's no lie . ]]

first dae of term 3 worhx..

2005-06-27T16:55:00.000-07:00

hmMm..
todae first dae of schx
so sianx
gotta drag mahself outta bed n head 2 sch
n i haf to wear Mi's uniform
oMg
so kuku on mi lorx

nothin much to blog leix
oni tat thurs ish yong wei's birthdae
*happi birthdae to u
u r born in the zoo
wif yong hui n li min
n hannah foo wif u**
touch horx.. sing fer u leix
ahhax..

went to watch initial D worhx on 23 june
first dae come out i go see
edison hao ke ai worhx

tis pic edited by yong wei. ai yax. gif her credit lahx.. =P

hmmm.. but so sad
jay nt wif tat gurlx in the end
haix
n edison nt the lead actor leix
ahhax
wil initial 2 comes out?
ahhax
then jay wil be wif tat gurlx ler bahs
wen ish dvd comin out worhx
someone promise** to buy fer mi
yeahx

[[I head towards the north to leave the season which describes u
u said u were already tired n cannot fall in love wif anybody againn
The wind is blowing on the mountain road
all of our previous memories were mah wrongdoings
Counting mah shamefulness, I haf hurt u too many instances
I head towards the north to leave the season which describes u
Around the steering wheel rotates my feelings of regret
I accelerate to escape the lingering sadness
Counting my shamefulness, I have hurt you too many instances
Stop the anguish caused by my wrongdoings ]]

-yi lu xiang bei-jay zhou

2005-06-22T22:24:00.000-07:00

presentin.. the world's most suai guy..

ytd mis seein edison at lido
i so sad worhx
ahhax
but tmr goin see intial D ler worhx
l8r i sure go buy the dvd one

kor
why suddenly put down fone?
mi n benson very worri worhx

[[the town ish quiet durin the nite like the deep sea
i continue to walk down the road alone
relyin on a voice far away
i search fer tat faint harmonious lite
if i find u
i wont lose u a second time
no matter the pain in mah chest
i'l always be near
always.. always..]]

east coast =))

2005-06-20T22:45:00.000-07:00

u n mi? wil it be true ..

went east coast wif pearly ben n kor
cuz pearly wanna pick sea shell sia
stupid ben put sand intu mah canvas shoe
ahhax
i noe i stupid
wear canvas shoe go beach
lalala`

mah hair very luan ritex

i'm walkin..

ahhax.. pat.. mah blog also alot pics ler =PpP
copy u?
ahhax

had fun todae bahs
went to beach
open up all mah bottled up feelins
throw them to the sea?

the sea ish so calm
so nice
no worries de
so gud
the ambience so nice
so coolx
how i wish i can stay near seas
ahhax
got fan nao then go ther
maybe rie all mah probs on the sand
and let the beach settle everythin fer mi

wil it be reversed too??
ahhax

[[boi mits ger
u were mah dream of world
but i was blind
u cheated on mi front behind
so on mah own
i feel so all alone
but i noe
its true
i'm stil in love wif u
i nid a miracle
i wanna be ur gal
gimme a chance to see
tat u were made fer mi
i nid a miracle
pls lemme be ur ger
one day u see
can happen to mi]]

hmmm.. fone gud worhx..

2005-06-18T02:10:00.000-07:00

hmmm
todae yong wei help mi edit foto worhx
ahhax

went k pool play todae
so long nv play ler
i stil play like shit
ahhax
but arhx
damn it la
walk out dat time got tis ah beng arhx
his cue hit mah stomach
not purposely la
but he nv sae sori
waox!
kor sae don create trouble la
then walk off lor
then walk to church frm boon lay inter change
45 mins
ahhax
so furni arhx
mi no money take bus la
=P
hmmm
took alort of foto sia
mah bible

jurong pt

ahhax
baby foto

city harvest mah church worhx

ahhax
i wanna run away frm all the probs stuck in mah head
reali very stress
last foto la
mi goin hme ler

[[i don wanna run away
but i cant take it
i don understand
if mah heart not meant fer u
den why does mah heart tels mi dat i am]]

lalala`

2005-06-16T23:26:00.000-07:00

hmMm
so touch worhx
even li hom also come tag mah blog worhx
ahhax
=))

dunno cut wad fringe lei
ahhax
see now muz every dae pin ler la
like dat

ahhax
got side view somemor leix
entertainment mahs
mah dnt project =X

ok lahx..
tmr tink maybe goin bowlin la
wif kor n bullshit(boon siong)
not goin wif pri sch frens ler
ahhax
den go church haf dinner together wif sis gina

maybe oni god truely understand mi bahs =))

** [[cuz I miss you, body and soul so strong
that it takes my breath away
and i breathe you into my heart
and pray for the strength to stand today
cuz i lurve you,
whether it's wrong or right
and thou' I can't be wif you tonite
i noe my heart is by your side]] **

tmr his birthdae ler worhx

2005-06-16T15:12:00.000-07:00

hmmm
actually tok to pearly to dae
realli happi
open up mah feelins to her
ahhax
gurlx thanks

i nid a break!
toO much probs ler..

ahhax
dunno if kor goin church tmr ma
pri sch fren sae wan go happenin in the mornin leix
if nv go out wif them den
at hme slp?
oh no!
wastin mah holidae sia
ahhax

ah ma jus discharge frm hospital
ahhax
l8r goin visit her
=))
filial i noe
praise the lord!

[[tears fallin down
like nv b4`
all becuz of u.]]

goIn ceLlgrp sOOn lEr woRhx..

2005-06-15T12:31:00.000-07:00

he's gone frm mah life
gone wif the wind
and i'm stil here dreamin

maybe one dae i'l realise
how beautiful ish the world out there
how meaninful ish mah life
wen mah heart finally lands on someone
someone who truely loves mi
who truely noes mi
who truely understands mi

mani frens by mah side
maybe smal amt of them noes the inner side of mi
beyong mah sun shine character
some might sae i'm happy go lucky
some might sae i very lianx
ahhax
who cares lahx
opinioniated(spel wrong?)

maybe one dae i wil forget him
and love the other him wif all mah heart
knowin tis wae i wil truely find mah real happiness bahs
but wil he ever comes back to mah life again?
even as mah fren?
but i noe the story's ended long ago
story of mi n him
ahhax
2 months ago?
or maybe longer then dat..
wad ever lahx

i'l find mah happiness mahself
even if its in mah dream
i'l escape frm reality
and run towards heaven..

[[dui.bu.qi.wo.ai.ni.baby.i.nid.time__________.]]

arghx..

2005-06-14T23:58:00.000-07:00

ahhax
hit town wif candy jux
mis her worhx
mah meiix
she very cute sia
hmmm
went far east
took neo print
yea
den went nuh
pass by dover
tot maybe jia bao ther
but wang ba dan one he
msg him he told mi he fly to queens wae ler
ahhax
bad bad bad
hmmm
den went tu lot one makan
arhx
went wif mama n bro(dumbass)
mama fav lor
"let's eat" at lot one ther
nice la
ate thier tom yam kway tiao
tink their chilli free one
ahhax
but nice lor
hmmm
went body shop
bought hair serum
perfume
blehx
ahhax
went kai wei
so punk sia she
big yellow t shirt
n three quat pants
ahhax
den went pasa malam lorx
jux reach hme lor

todae 14 worhx
exactlly 2 months ler worhx
ahhax
i'm not thinkin of him ler lahx
realli
believe mi worhx
i'm try mah best de
don care him ler lahx
jux take it dat i very suay lor
met him in one of the chapters of mah life
i shall tear tat chapter off the bk of mah life
thou wil leave scar hor
but nvm la
tear away beta lahx
ahhax
crappin i noe
nv go down bishan ther todae
yea
ahhax
thoug ytd nite was very sad
memories came back again
but...
i noe i'm gonna be alrite
oh yax
frenx
i cut mah hands todae worhx
very deep worx
show ur concern leix..

[[tat.nite.i.dream.of.u.n.mi.
sittin.on.top.of.the.roof.
mi.lyin.on.ur.shoulder.
euu.whisper.words.tu.mi
words.tat.i.longed.to.hear
as.i.fel.aslp.
but.wen.i.woke.up
reality's.taken.over.mi
euu.were.nv.ther
i'm.oni.dreamin..]]

esplanade

2005-06-12T21:48:00.000-07:00

yTd wEnt tU eSplAnaDE
iSh bEen lOng siNce i Went tHer bAhs
ahHax
hmMm..
wEnt tu bugis there makan wif n139
nice worhx the fooD
gO heerenx wif jude
toOk nEopriNt aGn
ahhHax
hE aLso fAl iN lOve wiF tAkin fotOx lEr wOrhx

jUx nOW weNt tU iMm
buy curtain
ahhax
waox
mahs new hSe liKe foreSt leIx
soFa bRown
cuRtiN gReEn
wth
hahx
den went han's eat
waox
the black forest cake spoil!
they refund mi
sae sori here sori there
ahhax
i look very fierce arhx
mi not wearin uniform leix
tot oni wearin uniform pple scare mi cux haix
i look lianx??
wadeva lahx
den pat msg mi sae " ger u on lime worhx"
ahhax
i go buy lime i see ler i also wanna luff sia
i wearin mi shirt n tat short pants
oMg
candid shot
but furni lahx
oni got pat hands
don haf her face
at tanglin mall
aNotheR gUd thiNg siA
liMe goRt EdiSon biG poSteR wOrhx
oMg i lOve hiM^^
hmMm..
sOo fuRni leix
jia bao msg mi
sae he playin soccer
den i ask him why play soccer don play bball
ahhax
=PpP
hE sAe wAd plAy lEr aLso sOo shOrt
dOn sAd lAhx jiA bAo
u tAlleR dEn mE wOrx
ahhax
goNna gO eAt lEr...
tata~
one more thing..
wHose tHe pErsOn anonymous sia
i wana noe !
who noe tel mi i gif tat person $1000 dollar
hee..
another thin worx
derrick kor
don study til crazy arhx
muz study hard den can go Mi ler
hee hee =PpP

**soMe hOW i hoPe tiMe wiLL pAss quiCkly, tiME wiLL hEal aNithiN, dAt's wAd hE toLd mE.. [[` i saw a star in the sky. the oni one tat sparkles ever so brite. the oni one dat nite. i told him to see the star. he was standin behind mi as we both loOk uPp dat dArk sKy. silent fer some moment wen he suddenly broke the peace, n sae "the star dat reali sparkles in mah heart ish the star infront of mi, n tis star wil remain as brite as b4, 4eva.."]]**

5 hrs service

2005-06-10T01:55:00.000-07:00

hmMm..
wad gud frenx i haf
i ask them wad wud they do if they do not haf the courgae to love another person animor?
n they reply
remain single til they die lahx
ahhax
dat's mah frenx
ahhax..

veRy coOlx siA.
tOdaE sErviCe 5 hRs
oMg
buT vEry fuN
pResEnce oF gOd wAs rEali stRong
ahHax
rEali liKE tiS blogsKin woRHx
tHanks patrIcia
hMmm..
tmR goiN nUh sEe aH ma
oPeratiOn siA

**gimme time. i wil not let u down baby**

finally..

2005-06-09T10:25:00.000-07:00

hmmm
tHanks pAtaricia
givin u credit fer ur blogskin u help mi create
thank thanks
hee =))
tis ish de nicest one i see wor..

so long nv update ler wor
ahhax
tat dae went to beach wif jude
after mitin him
pass him back his da vinci code
he didn't dare look at mi bahs
i walk away
ahhax
cuz i dun wish to see him lahx..
almost two months nv see him ler
hmmm
den went beach pick sea shell wif jude
ahhax
very hapi
ahhax...
tata`

sianx

2005-06-05T00:17:00.000-07:00

hmmm
ytd went mac in the mornin
mi pat limin jacky joseph
den went down town
half wae joseph went to mit his fren
so the rest of us walk to ps
jude came tu mit mi
hmmm
after dat alex came tu mit pat
den dunno wad quarrel den mi n jude went back tu find her
half wae she call den sae wad ok ler
waox
actin drama arhx.. korean drama arhx???

jux back frm cell grp
ahhax
went tu buy chocolate waffle
den went his hse
after dat went tu buy bleach fer sis yvonne n himself
mayb tue go his hse ask him help mi dye one strand
ahhax
todae jude was ordered by sis yvonne to style up the hair of pple ther
cuz sae he veri li hai style up hair sia
ahhax
i luff at him
den he sae next wk learn make up worst
den mah face wil becum monkey back side ler
ahhax
asshole tat samson yeo
ask mi pass him bk back
den tel mi cannot make it
dua mi
ahhax
tue den pass back him ler lahx
cuz one mitin him at bishan
but twelve thirty stil at gombak station
but wad crap
he sae mitin his fren at one
arghx!
pat wan pierce ear hole arhx
ahhax
i wan also
but she goin wif alex leix
hee hee
jude chan..
or kenneth ye..
wan pierce
hahax =P

beach

2005-06-03T00:54:00.000-07:00

i wan go beach
i wan go pick sea shell
leavin our footstep on the sand..

[[i.don.miz.de.past.lerr.but.i.hope.i.wil.get.a.gimpse.of.mah.future]]

met joseph

2005-06-03T00:40:00.000-07:00

hor hor
ytd joseph nv call mi
bad bad bad
hahaz
hmmms
todae jude gimme mornin call ard 6
but furni leix
wake up at nitex
damn scare lahx
went tu mit joseph
first time mahs
so reach bt batok mrt saw li min
she also dun dare go mit jacky
wad sia
hahaz
den pat also cum lor
den 5 of us go mac sia
nv buy anithin
sit there stone
den go westmall walkwalk
den go bk makan
den go coffee drink kopi
aft dat went back sch
dey sae mah tongue short todae sia
wad sia
den aft sch went sis felicia hse bake cake wif jude
hahax
den went lot one makan
hahax.. wif jude
den go take neo print again..
hahax
but it sucks lahx
reach hme 9 plus ler
=X

somehow i feel dat mah life ish gettin beta ler
hahax
dunno
but i noe jude.. patricia 's cheerin mi up everydae
they r tryin their best
hahax
fourteen of june comin ler
hahax
shld i stil go eat prata lehx on dat dae.
shld i jux forgo tis dae
n nv remb it eva again?
thanks mah frenx..
hahax..
i'm mor den fine now..
hee *gRiN*

\\ -ai.wo.bie.zou . ^^ . __________ //

ice skatin

2005-06-01T22:07:00.000-07:00

ummmx
todae went ice skatin
so fun sia
bully kor
ahhax
jude treat mi sia
cuz i broke ler mahs
nv mit joseph todae
hahax
tmr lorx..
kk
yong wei ps mi tmr!!!!
ARGHX!
hahax..
dunno wad's gonna happen tmr
=X

westmall slack`

2005-05-31T09:26:00.000-07:00

ytd kor ask mi why pple in MI sae i look so ah lian
hahax
i also dunno
jux serid
like de first dae i go sch
no one dare tok tu mi sia
i dun think all gers wif long and straight hair shld be labeled as ah lian lor
not fair sia
hahax
but i dun care ler
hahax

so sianx todae
go bt batok de mac slack`
at hme also nuthin tu do sia
ahhax
so go mit korkor
hahax
den biao ge also come mit us
actually goin imm de
but aunt come mah hse
so no choice go hme lor
ate chicken fold over fer dinner
**nICe**
joseph sae tmr wanna go out anot
hahax
but i got one stupid big pimples on mah face leix
hows.. hahax.. l8r tmr he see he luff sia
wad eva lahx.. dunno tmr wanna go ice skate anot leix//
see how bahs..
tata`

went bugis

2005-05-30T22:57:00.000-07:00

sooo long nv update blog ler
ahha
todae went to bugis wif yong wei
buy tank top again
tink i can ell tank tops ler
very fun sia
got bugis junction dun walk bring mi go bugis villiage
hahax
den went jude hse visit kor n biao ge
transfer songs to mp3
cux yw wan go mit her dar dar lahx
always like dat de
3 quater of de time tel mi abt alex
hahax
ytd went to esplanade n fountain of wealth wif kai wei n jude
realli had fun
i realli like the sky garden at esplanade
hahax
god pa treat mi eat at shang - gala(dunno hw tu spell lahx) ytd
wao
food was fantastic

stupid sia
got three pimples on mah face
tmd
arghx!!!!!
kenneth stil got nerve ask mi hw to rid pimples
nv die b4...

liz gonna fly ler
wed
gonna miz her jokes
hahax..

tata~

weddin

2005-05-27T00:37:00.000-07:00

had fun todae
went to dinner at dunno which hotel leix
near ps de
bride very chio lahx
biao ge happix ler wor
hahax
nothinn to blog now adays
hmmm
chew wei arhx
dun sad hao ma
i mean u haf to lett go of some things in life
wad's ur ish urs wad's not urs dun hold on ler
life wil get beta somehow
dun dwell on de past ler
guyz r guyz
no matter wad..
cheer upp!!!!!

sports heat..

2005-05-18T22:29:00.000-07:00

met yong wei at bus stop
as usual
late again
hahax
todae's pe's fun

after sch we stayed in clz fer awhile
hahax
den limin bring curler 2 sch
n they were curlin mah hair
wad sia
i swear i won perm mah hair tis life sia
hahax
den went to toa payoh stadium fer sport's heat
heats oni whole sch haf to go
best part ish we haf to travel frm bt batok al de wae to toa payoh sia
how *nice of de sch
went long john makan
wao
food also darn *nice sia
arghx
tink i wil die young if i stay in dat sch
in stadium
i took revenge
hahax
*sorri jacky, meant tu b eh joke la.. *
but quite fun..

after heats
kai wei went tu mah hse
change cuz she wanna go out wif *ahem
hahax
fren oni lor
den after dat went tu mac makan wif aunt
think i gonna becum pig soon..

**wil i see u again, n i miss u so, n I nid tu noe, will u wait 4 mie**

walk hme todae...

2005-05-17T23:12:00.000-07:00

todae late fer sch again
but not mah fault l er
waited fer yong wei
den miss last bus
wei da bahs
*yong wei gonna cry ler**
hmmm
den alex tang n eng chuan also waited fer yong wei wif mie
so all late together
den reach sch
tcher sae those late first time can go back clz
i second time late ler
haix
so muz do sch service
dat moment realli very sad sia
cux one by one, mah bro n sis left mi
hahax..
left mi one person do sch service
they darn gud huh..
hahax..
den walk hme frm westmall wif jude
hahax
someone rie pig behind his shirt..
tata~

** if u n mi were together, together we'l be 4eva..i gotta believe.. dat de sun wil shine another dae**

sign off earli..

2005-05-16T21:06:00.000-07:00

todae mi sick wor
muz b too late sleep ytd
hahax
watchin edison show ma
mah suai ge..
i'm realli obsessed over him n his hair..
hahx
so sign off earli frm sch
but reach hme cannot slp lehx
so transfer songs to mp3
den went out makan
jux reach hme.

dunno why gp so hard to rie sia
lucky mi n yw pass
hahax
but ish like 16.5/30
hahax
always tokin abt teen pregnancy, parent divorcin n stuff
i realli gort nottin to tok abt lehx

**memoris r juz `illusions_____ of de mind**

tilted bottle loses center of gravity, n falls...

fountain of wealth

2005-05-15T23:07:00.000-07:00

went to prata hse at bishan ytd
jude sae i shld dumb all mahs memories there
hahax
since ytd was jux nice one month
yea
walk pass mani places
mani sad memories flashed back
walk pass de basketball court
hahax
den jude papa came pick us up
he tr8t mi eat at han's at far east
but so furni lahx
haf dinner wif his papa n mama
after dat they drive us to fountain of wealth
mi n jude go round de fountain like those auntie n uncle
hahax
den after dat went hme ler..
thx jude.. realli make mi happi ytd..

hmmm
todae mit jude
den walk to bt batok frm gombak station
wad sia
we wanna try see how long it takes
n it oni took like 15 mins frm mah place
den went juron pt
mit felicia n allan
bought famous amos cookies to eat
den went chruch fer service
after dat went to ah ma hse..
now watchin edison show wor
wao.. i love his hair !!!!!

TATA~

**cuz time wil pass mi by, maybe i'l nv learn to smile, but i noe i'l make it thru, if u wait fer mi... n all de tears i cry, no matter how i try, they'll nv bring u home to mi, wont u wait fer mi in heaven... **

swenson coolx..

2005-05-12T22:13:00.000-07:00

todae's coolx
yw mention eh lame thingy
tel mi i shld buy a black highlighter..
hahax
confronted someone too
pissin mi off
he's so ham
after sch went to library wif limin n yong wei
den went to eat at kfc
went swenson eat ice cream
hao hao chi wor..
hahax
heard bout things happen btw jude n kaiw ei
haix
so went to church todae
dunno wad lahx
i also very fan ler
life goes on
but wil it get beta
haix..

tata`

**sui ran you shi nan mian hui xiang ta, ju ba ta dan cheng hui yi, bu zai qu xiang ta, ba ta dan cheng hao peng you, ge cheng ai guo de ren.. **

went swenson..

2005-05-12T06:58:00.000-07:00

went back unity sec..

2005-05-11T22:13:00.000-07:00

as usual
met yong wei at bus interchange
i was late again
arghx..

pe was fun
played bb
but instead we play monkey
hahax
bb, jux ehx round orange ball

went down lot one wif yong wei kai wei alex tang n ronnie
hahax
jin hui bling yet wei siyan n bling playin at k pool
arghx
cant enter
wearin uniform sia
den we went to eat at thai restaurant(counted anot arhx)
hahax
yong wei n ronnie went hme
den went back unity sec
den mi bling went to yet hse
take uniform
mess up her hse
go her hse we started tryin her skirt
hahax
8 plus ler so took taxi hme..

somehow i realli miss sec sch life
haix
no stress de
no worries
noein dat pple wil always be there fer mi
jux now we were tokin about our past
tokin how we use to be
lookin at our prom fotos n neo prints
hahax..
but now also not bad la
got mani gud frenx in mi too
got one crazy de yw lor
hahax

blehx`

**xiang hui dao guo chu, shi zhe ran gu shi ju xu, zhi sao bu zai ran ni li wo er ju ...**

went sakae todae..

2005-05-10T23:23:00.000-07:00

todae soo furni
went to LT fer gp mass lecture
mi n yong wei sat wif ronnie n zhi hao as usual
we were tokin bout wen we first met zhi hao
hahax
the first thin dat came out of his mouth was
" i'm single but unavaible"
hahax
den yong wei reply dat she's
"attached but avaible"
hahax
**yong wei's gonna kill mi ler wen she c tis
den gp teacher was saein married couple shld give n take
man give, woman take..
hahax
after sch limin yong wei n mi went buy instant noodles back sch
cux got bridgin modules
but instead we were at library surfin net.
alex tang n kai wei went to look fer us den we went hme together
after dat went to westmall look fer gugu n ah ma..
had sakae sushi..
after dat qu go hme ler

its been almost a month ler bahs
time realli flies
sometimes, we realli cant control wad r we thinkin de
memories jux pop out frm ur mind. or shld i use de word heart
pple all tel mi to look forward
no pt turnin back ler
i noe i noe
but sometimes, u realli cant help it but turn n look back
becuz u miss de past bahx

**i'll always remb, it was late afternoon...
in places no one wil find, all ur feelins so deep inside,
it was den dat i realise, dat 4eva was in ur eyes
de moment i saw u cry.. **

another borin dae...

2005-05-09T22:22:00.000-07:00

todae's gonna come to an end i guess..
very sianx
got Pe todae
mit yong wei at bus interchange
den go sch
saw ronnie on bus
took foto todae
auntie ask mi wear size 15 de shirt
wad sia
think i wore pajamas took mah individual foto
after sch went hme wif alex tang n yong wei
haha
yong wei go mit her beloved alex lee ler
dun care mi!
hahax
pei alex go buy rice
he bought two packet of rice
n sae he ish gonna finish everythin
cux he sae he nid to gain weight
20 more kg den over weight
wad sia
nutx ler he..
wad crapp`
hahax
i go buy ham, potato, tuna
cux tmr wan make sandwiches n potato salad fer clz mate to eat
feed yong wei
so she wont keep tokin
lolx
was tokin to her bout mah probs todae
cux was quite sad
hahax
she sae i shld go fer wad i realli wanted bahs
hahax
life's short..
think i muz fly to hong kong find edison chen ler
lolx
an wei wo zi ji*
aniwae.. life stil goes on bahs
chan ler
cant cope in Mi sia
tink muz transfer to poly ler
hahax
kor sae got yong wei make mi happi in clz i stil sad
shen zai fu zong bu zhi fu*
hahax
wed goin out wif jin hui yet wei n bling
maybe goin play pool wif xuan hao..
blehx`

**why do we nv know wad we've gort til its gone, how cud i carry on, the dae u went away, cuz i've been missin u so much i've got to sae, been cryin since de dae, de dae u went away-m2m**

nothin to update

2005-05-08T21:05:00.000-07:00

dumb dumb yong wei
sae i nv update cuz i lazy
hahax..
actually ish nothin much to update
kenneth also
complainin i nv update
>.^

todae mama dae
bought flowers n foto plus frame gif mama
she sounded quite happi
dunno lehx
den went cause wae after goin ah ma hse
like ages since i last c mah ah ma
bought bag n shoe frm cnk
not bad lahx
white colour de
hahax

somehow i feel tat somethin's missin frm mahs life
dunno wad
everydae in clz i can luff n luff n luff
cuz of tat crazy yong wei
nv fail to brighten up mah dae
realli hapi to haf ya as mah best fren now ger..
but deep inside
i think i need some ans to life..
ish it de lost of love
frm mah frenx?
frm family?
or cux of tat guy?
tat guy reali tore up mah heart if he doesn't noe
n left mah world
hahax..
but i long knew its over ler
if it were nt fer mahs frenx by mahs side
yong wei.. jude.. alex.. tim.. felicia.. derrick etc and of cux god!
i dun think i wil be able to get on wif mahs life so easily
hahax..
everydae jux study n study
dunno wad teacher teachin also
tat dae skip physic lecture wif yong wei n li min
den kenna detention again
haix
do i realli look so ah lianx
why all tchers findin fault wif mi
wad sia..
hahax,..
suddenly.. i miz yet wei jin hui baoling they all
hahax..

jude.. i'm sori.. but i tot tis wae. ish beta fer both of us...

*zhong yu ming bai ni yi bian cheng hui yi, ... shi qu ni cai zhi dao yao dong de zheng xi - melody(tao ze)*

mit jeff todae

2005-05-02T10:38:00.000-07:00

hmmm
todae had fun
cux go far east shoppin
wif jude
arghx.. spent too much lerz
dunno why mama so gud
transfer money to mah account
hahax
bagz.. clothes.. even took foto todae
hahaz
hmmm
saw yet wei's swt heart
daniel n sherline at heerens..
den went down west mall
makan wif jeff n kenneth
after dat went walk in westmall den go hme lerz
tired but fruitful dae..
hee
tata~

*but i knew de very min, cudn't live mahx life wifout u in it n now i wan de whole wide world
2 noe, i'l go ani where fer u, anywae u ask mi 2, i'l do anithin fer u, anithin u wan mi 2-bsb*

ytd

2005-04-29T11:00:00.000-07:00

ytd
came hme late frm church
so tired so nv blog
tok on fone wif xiao di til i slp again
haha
went to mit jude tim n allan at jp
went kfc makan
cuz tim sae delifrance too ex
arghx
i wanna eat delifrance de
dumb dumb tim..

todae goin tanglin mall sell stuff
stupid econs project sia
hahax
muz come support mi wor
those who read tis blog
hahax

*tu be hurt.. tu feel lost.. to be left out in da dark \\_______.*

west mall tour

2005-04-28T22:06:00.000-07:00

hmz
after ch went makan wif yong wei n alex tang
hahx
jude came find us
so touch**
bought mi cream cuz my hand injured.
hahax..
thax xiao di!!!
hmmz..
nothin much todae
but reali pissed off by tat stupid lady
help us wrap thing so long..
stil tat type of attitude
damn`
haha
jj u guai kia i model pupil in clz ler lor..
hahax..
signin off..

*ur de last thing on mah mind.. wen i go and slp at nite-damage(forever)*

went gr8 world todae....

2005-04-27T11:14:00.000-07:00

"jian jian dan dan" tis song so nice
hahax
finally i haf de courage to listen to sad songs
no more tears flowin
hahax
two weeks haf pass ler
blehx..

todae went down beauty world makan wif yong wei elson chen guan yong jie n jamas
de noodles so spicy sia
den jamas keep luffin at mi n yong wei
cuz we two eat til so poorthin sia
too spicy ler ma
hahax

went back hme
change ler den wen to gr8 world wif mama papa bro n ah ling jie
went to pass hui ling vcd too
now den jux reach hme
gr8 world de yoghurt ice cream realli very nice sia
dat's all bahs..

*xiang qi wo men de chong cian, lei shui qiu yi dian yi dian kai shi mian nian-Duan Dian(zhang jing xuan)*

went clement makan

2005-04-26T10:15:00.000-07:00

now tokin 2 jude
he heart`broken lerx..
dun tink too much wor =)

hmmm
went to clementi makan aft sch
wif yong wei limin shawn elson n yong jie
hahax
den go ah ma hse
so qiaox.
at gombak staiton met ben jude n fredrick
haha
chat awhile sia

feelin quite lost now
lost in mah own world
but i muz sae my frenz r a gr8 encourage to mi
haha..
blehx`

*wei she me dan wo tui kai men, ta mei you lai la zhu wo- ta hai shi bu dong-sHe*

lot one..

2005-04-26T00:06:00.000-07:00

went 2 sch
pe suckss as usual
after sch went mit jude
he sae wan pass mi e vcd
hahax
so furni
jude tel mi soo much things
dat happened todae
listen til i wanna luff siax
ha.. cant stop luffin
went lot one makan wif mama
nv go k pool find jude jj they all..
arghx..

aniwae.. yong wei.. my dear ger..
dun think too much.. =)) realli..
everyone ish there fer u de.. no lee..
stil got tang or tai.. haha`

=))

*wo zhi hao. ba wo xiang suo de hua dou fang zai xin li. ying wei wo zhi xiang yao ni gao xing-sly suo yi*

goin out soon ler..

2005-04-24T13:51:00.000-07:00

hmmmz
goin out soon lerx
go town mit ah ling jie
now listenin to jj de yi jian nian yi hou
so sad`
hahax...
first time c ernest online
misses de time i was workin in mos burger
had soo much fun
actually tat moment of time
my life was so gud
now''s like shit
hahax
stupid parents..
stupid sch..
wad ever lahx..

*...you noe you got de power to make mi weak inside-downin bsb*

bbq- jane place

2005-04-24T00:27:00.000-07:00

7.20 woke up
sianx
7.30 muz reach sch todae
cip
den take taxi lor
lucky khai called mi
or else i confirm slp til aft de
taxi dunno wher's mah wulu sch so turn stupids rounds
wao
cheat con swindle mah money
hahax
wao.
collect newspaper til like siaox
den went burger king makan
yong wei arhx
dun bother abt her la okay
=))
FER we r beta off den her la
no matter wad
smile den even more beta ler ma
haha
we r siaox one
so siaox one muz smile
hee hee
den went hme change ler den go lot one mit tim
go buy bbq stuff
den kor came to mit us
den go jane place ler
wen gonna go hme
kor lost his specs
den we found it in dustbin
wad sia
den played some games there
den go hme ler
realli had fun todae
sorri tim
todae mani things jux flashed thru mah mind
my parents stuff.. fren's stuff.. sch stuff.. haix
not oni u got fan niao
mi also haf de lor
smae boat hor
hahax
wad eva it ish
god ish always there fer us bahs
tata`
smile.. bring joy to da world..