[[ loving you]]

Sunday, December 26, 2004

feelin so puzzled dae by dae.. wad do i realli wan in life. like him. but nv dare tell him. wad am i afraid of.. realli nt sure. rejection? being hurtz? dun think so bahx. cux i noe tat in his heart. she wil always be inside de. tot of him again today. the feelins so strong. so funi.. chat wif pearly todae. she ish also very sad. the guy she luv block her on msn. i've learnt a lesson. confession ain't gud. u might nt even be frens the next moment. i also think so. cannot even be frens. so sorrow.. now she can't even contact him. she ish so sad. cannot sms him. msg him. email him, can't even see him. she sae tat i am far more fortunate then her. but then i think otherwise leix. cannot contact is beta mahx.. wad he ish doin ish gud u noe pearly, he wans u to forget him. and all his doin ish fer ur own gud. tis wae. u can forget him more readily. you sae i am more xin fu i can contact him. can msg him. can sms him. tis wae, my feelins fer him wil grow. worst. i wil think tat there might even be hope between us. i wil think. although i noe it is totally impossible between us wad. maybe i shld mia fer a while. can i forget him in tis wae. someone tell mi how.. the more i wun wanna think of him. the more my heart reaches fer him. let nature take its course? haix. now he ish online, but i also dun dare msg him. wad the hell am i thinkin... ming ming heng xiang ta de. haha.. i ask kor if i am silly to haf fallen fer him, but he reply it is foolish to lurve, so i am nt silly. i guess is true bahs... no matter wad.. i think no matter how i am holdin on the endin wil nv change...

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